Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Book Tour ~ Whispers of the Elixir - Order of The Ember: Book 1 by C. P. Silver

 

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A matriarchal empire. A princess with forbidden magic. A mother who would kill to protect her own legacy.

As heir to the Min empire, Tori has learned to wear her collar well — speaking her mind just enough to feel like herself, defying her empress mother just enough to survive the guilt of submission. But she's hiding a secret that would see her sawn in half: a forbidden elemental power tied to the world's mythic past. If discovered, her mother would execute her own daughter without hesitation. And Tori knows it.

When discovery becomes inevitable, she flees into Peach Blossom Grove — a mythic realm of ghost-flowers, sentient forests, and immortals who remember a world before empires. In this ancient realm where immortal masters train magic-wielders and sentient weapons choose their owners, magic is neither blessing nor curse but a reflection of who you truly are. Here, Tori finds what the palace never gave her: belonging. But the trials are brutal, designed to break her before they remake her. And as her mother's ambition threatens war, Tori must choose — suppress the power that could doom her, or embrace it and become the one thing her mother fears most.

Herself.

Whispers of the Elixir begins the Order of the Ember series — a slow-burn, character-driven epic fantasy of legacy, sacrifice, and the strength of a princess destined to rise from the shadows and claim her place in legend.

Here you will find the political intrigue of Andrea Stewart, the immersive worldbuilding of Patrick Rothfuss, and the emotional weight of M.L. Wang.

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Tori fought the feeling of being on a leash. She raised a hand halfway to the feathers fastened around her neck, hesitated, then let it fall.

“Is it itching, Princess?” Lady Elnora said, watching her.

“Like all insanity, but no point fiddling with it.”

Her gentlewoman adjusted the feathered ruff anyway, providing no relief whatsoever. It didn’t matter. Collared or not, today she would prove she was not her mother’s lapdog.

She struggled to see above the red filigree rail of the Imperial Observation Pavilion—where the royal family sat, far above the masses—the weight of her ceremonial robes resisting her every effort. Imperial decorum, it seemed, had not been designed with mobility in mind. It was times like these that she regretted her small stature; her mother, no doubt, could see perfectly.

Once she finally shifted forward, however, her three-story vantage point allowed her a perfect view of the float parade winding through the city of Silver Fox Springs in a ribbon of color and sound.

“I still don’t see them,” Tori said, craning her neck forward.

Elnora’s smooth brown finger pointed the way. Blending seamlessly with the sculptures of giant mythical creatures adorning the streets, Tori’s pantomimists balanced on their stilts, waist pouches packed so tight with skades that the little stones stretched the seams. Pantomimists had never been seen before at the Tailu Spring Festival—and would remain hidden, until her plan required it.


About the Author:

C.P. Silver writes fantasy set in a world where matriarchy is absolute, with immersive worldbuilding, evocative prose, and emotionally complex characters. A former lawyer who also briefly studied Chinese medicine, her experiences shape the nuance and depth of her debut novel, Whispers of the Elixir, a slow-burn epic centered on legacy, inheritance, and the dangerous cost of power.

Raised in the Cayman Islands, she now lives in Europe. When not writing, she’s usually reading in a quiet nook or walking somewhere green, listening for the next story.

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Book Tour ~ The Mind-Spirit Bible Practice by Nicole Dona

 




A Trauma-Informed DBT Inspired Guide to Renew the Mind & Spirit


Christian Living / Nonfiction / Spiritual Growth

Date Published: April 21, 2026

Publisher: Lucid Books Publishing



Are you a person of faith who loves God deeply but still feels overwhelmed by anxiety, shame, trauma, or emotions that seem too heavy, too human, or too unholy? Do you ever feel at conflict between your therapy and theology?

The Mind-Spirit Bible Practice was written for you.

In these pages, author and mental health advocate Nicole Doña bridges the gap between faith and psychology—showing how Scripture and Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) can work together to bring emotional and spiritual wholeness. Drawing from her own story of healing and resilience, she offers practical tools and biblical insight to help you regulate emotions through grace, find God’s presence in your pain, and live from “the mind of the Spirit” (Romans 8:6).

Whether you’re a believer, clinician, or ministry leader, this book is a resource for experiencing lasting healing—where emotional health and spiritual transformation finally become one.

 

 

I still remember the taste of that morning—oatmeal, coffee, and fear.

It was March 2015, my first day returning to work after six months on disability. I had just been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. My first boyfriend since becoming a Christian—the one I trusted enough to tell—broke up with me over text when I shared my diagnosis. My psychiatrist was exploring different cocktails of medications that left me dizzy, sleepless, and hollow. I’d been laid off from a job I loved, creating youth-leadership programs for teens and young adults with trauma and schizophrenia. During those months, I sank into the couch and into despair, binge-watching The Walking Dead until I felt like a zombie myself.

When I finally accepted a temporary job at a real-estate firm—far from the purpose-filled career I’d hoped for—I thought I was starting over. But as I sat on my red couch that morning, oatmeal bowl in hand, I realized I was still just trying to survive.

My roommate slept, and her tiny chihuahua, “Coco,” snored on the floor. Everything looked peaceful. But inside, it was war.

“You’re disgusting.”

“No man will ever want you.”

“You used to be strong, now you’re weak.”

“God’s disappointed in you.”

The accusations came like waves until I could hardly breathe. My chest tightened, my legs buzzed with energy, my mind screamed RUN, though there was nowhere to go. I was sitting in safety, but my body and mind believed I was in danger. After all, wherever I could run, my mind would follow.

That’s when I began to understand: I wasn’t just battling a diagnosis. I was battling a divided mind.

One part—the Mind of the Flesh—was ruled by emotion without truth: shame, fear, and self-loathing disguised as repentance. Another—the voice of Worldly Wisdom—was ruled by logic without grace: perfectionism, control, and the illusion that if I could just understand myself, I could fix myself. And somewhere beneath both was a whisper I hadn’t yet learned to trust—the Mind of the Spirit—quiet but steady, saying, “Breathe. You are still here. I have not given up on you.”

At that time, I didn’t know how to describe these three voices. I just knew my mind was constantly at war with itself. Yet even in that chaos, I kept reaching for my Bible. I couldn’t always feel God in the words, but I knew I needed them like oxygen.

Every morning, I opened Scripture even when my heart felt numb, and my thoughts screamed louder than the gentle whispers of God’s Word. Sometimes I read only a few verses before I broke down crying. Other times, I clung to one line—reading it over and over and struggling to believe it.

The Bible wasn’t a comfort at first; it was an anchor. It didn’t stop the storm, but it kept me from floating away.

During that same season, I also began doing Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) modules once a week. Eventually, I would complete all of them over the course of 18 months. DBT gave me practical tools to help me observe, name, and navigate the emotional chaos I lived in daily.
One skill stood out above the rest: the concept of Wise Mind[1]—the balanced place between Emotion Mind[2] and Reason Mind, where both truth and feeling can coexist.

At first, I didn’t realize it, but what DBT called Wise Mind mirrored what Scripture was teaching me about the Mind of the Spirit. Both invited me to pause between reaction and response, to breathe, to notice, and to let truth—not fear—be my guide. Both taught me that peace wasn’t found in suppressing emotion or mastering logic, but in integrating them under something higher—what DBT called “wisdom,” and what the Bible called “the Spirit of Truth.”



[1] Wise Mind is a core concept in Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT), representing the balanced integration of emotion and reason. It is described as the “inner wisdom” available when a person is simultaneously aware, centered, and able to access both logic and emotion without being dominated by either (Linehan 2015).

[2] Emotion Mind in DBT is the state where feelings are intense, overwhelming, and often interpreted as facts. It is marked by impulsivity, reactivity, and difficulty accessing logic or long-term perspective (Linehan 2015).

 

About the Author

 


 Nicole Doña is a Christian author, nonprofit founder, and mental-health advocate passionate about integrating faith and psychology for emotional healing. She is the author of The Mind-Spirit Bible Practice—a groundbreaking guide that bridges Scripture and Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) to bring emotional and spiritual wholeness to believers, clinicians, and ministries alike. A brain tumor survivor, wife, and foster mom, Nicole writes from lived experience, weaving neuroscience, trauma recovery, and biblical wisdom into a practical framework for transformation. She has led policy reforms in San Francisco for system-involved youth, advanced statewide mental-health reforms across California, and collaborated with global brain-health leaders through the University of California, San Francisco. In 2015, she received a Certificate of Honor from the San Francisco City & County Board of Supervisors for her contributions to mental-health policy and advocacy. She lives in the San Francisco Bay Area with her husband, Josh.


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Book Tour ~ Choppiness on High Seas by Arvind Wadhera

 



Literary Fiction

Date Published: 11-01-2024

Publisher: Troubador



Being born into poverty and hardship in 1930s London, Matthew’s life was one of relentless struggle. One inadvertent act in defence of his mother would haunt his conscience forever.

Matthew’s journey takes him from the poverty of a cold stone granary to the opulence of Mayfair and Kensington Palace Gardens, where he starts a family of his own. Despite working his way to the top of the business world, he remains an outsider to London’s elite. He then realises that same elite has an ugly underbelly. High society was a hot bed of depravity.

Will he correct society’s wrongs? Will the man who never succumbed to expectations be able to challenge his own destiny or will he simply accept the futility of it all?


 1930

Gail Stephens

 

Behold a filth hole of desolation! There was mud and blood on slippery, damp floors as an open gutter’s stench mixed with the strong fumes of ethanol and ammonia. Expectant mothers screamed and wretched in labour; the stocky midwives, thinking nothing of it, delivered one baby after the next, snipping at the umbilical cords before the placentas slopped out and splashed on the floor.

Gail Stephens was far too strong a woman to suffer a mishap in childbirth. She had earned this child even if it meant delivering him in a shelter for unmarried women. As soon as he was placed on her breast, she smiled. “You are my boy, Matthew. We will be each other’s strength from now on; do not worry about anything. Mummy will always be there.”

Next, the shelter put them in a maternity ward in an adjacent warehouse. There were two rows of beds on either side of the long corridor. The babies were placed in cots alongside their mothers as the midwives instructed the first-time mothers about nursing and feeding. Repeat mothers needed no such assistance and happily instructed their new sisters. Poverty may be a scourge, but motherhood ignored misery and united them all. Gail was not alone in having opted to keep the baby of a deserter. The sisterhood of bastard bearers did not believe in the stigma society callously applied to them.

The rest at the maternity ward did her good. Gail was a picture of health when she left the hospital and returned to her lodgings in the old stone house granary. She scrubbed herself with soap and water and dried her hair before the coal fire before choosing a clean dress with small floral patterns, its pleats pressed by the coal-heated iron firmly until crisp. She fed Matthew, cleaned him and put him back in a makeshift cot, where he quickly drifted into slumber.

Gail’s occupation was in keeping with her social status but was conducted in a parallel world. Gail cleaned the houses of wealthy London families. Her encounters with mahogany, marble, velvets and silks did not ignite envy; they only provided affirmation of her son’s destiny. “My son will live this life one day. I need to work hard to give him a good start. He must study so he can get an office job.” And work hard she did. The houses she cleaned were immaculate and often received the admiration of guests: “Please ask her if she has some free hours.”

She wore one of her two cardigans and grabbed her shawl before heading to Mr Burroughs’ house with Matthew wrapped in a blanket. Mrs Burroughs welcomed her, calling out to her husband. Mr Burroughs looked at mother and son. “What a beautiful baby. Should you be working so soon, Gail?”

“Thank you, Sir. I had an easy delivery and am well rested. I brought Matthew with me today, but from tomorrow, I will leave him at the infirmary’s baby centre.”

Mrs Burroughs smiled. “Gail, this is the first baby we have had in this house. Please bring him here as often as you can. If you cannot come to work one day, please do not worry. Your wages will be paid.”

“Oh, Madam, Sir, that is very kind indeed. Thank you. But I am a strong woman in good health.” Looking at Gail, one could hardly imagine the modesty she left back home every day; there was a sense of purpose about her, not the resignation of her peers.

The Burroughs had been a godsend after the tedious and unpleasant households she had worked for previously. Work was not difficult to find but was tricky to hold on to. A well-built, tall, handsome woman with an unblemished complexion and fine face did not go amiss on men. The emergence of a certain level of unease often made her leave the job herself. On other occasions, the lady of the house would ask her to leave. These were times when unmarried women with a child were presumed to be of questionable trait: prey for men, an unnecessary risk for their wives.

The wages were low, though. Wealthy people would spend vast amounts on indulgences but remained parsimonious regarding servants and cleaners.

There was little money, but Gail had her son christened at the local parish.

Matthew was moved to a charitable nursery at the age of eight months. The nursery had been set up by one of her clients. It was like a play school for children of working mothers until they were old enough to go to school. Many children had been put there to receive a meal at least once daily. They were laughing, smiling and crying, oblivious of their misery. A child needs love, company and the occasional scuffle. They partook in the one celebration the nursery could provide, a cake at birthdays, even though the cake distribution would be chaotic. The children did not know any other way. Good manners were not a natural trait amongst their lot. The child carers and teachers would adopt a stern stance and did not shy away from mentioning the dreaded punishment of no dinners. It had never been implemented, but the threat was formidable in its impact on the young cohort.

Along with the nursery’s other charges, Matthew grew from a baby to a toddler, from a toddler to a boy. Matthew stayed there until the age of six. Finances remained grim, but Gail was determined that her son learn manners and undergo full schooling, something she herself had been deprived of.

In the morass of their misery, the improbable education of Matthew Stephens took root.

Gail registered him at the local primary school. Schooling was not compulsory, certainly not for six-year-olds, but Gail believed education was the only way out of destitution. Moreover, all children at school were provided free school dinners, so there would be one less meal to worry about, just like when he was at the nursery. Matthew spent the next three years becoming a good student.

But then, war broke out. There was initially fear but shortly after, Britain’s pugnacity took root and the public believed that they would win, however difficult things got. The National Service Act conscripted citizens between 18 and 41 years of age. This initially created panic and hurt amongst families but soon a sense of truculent defiance to Hitler and duty to Britain came into play. Although single women were not exempt from conscription, women who had children living with them were exempted. Gail nevertheless wanted to play her due role and registered with the local makeshift hospital to offer cleaning services.

In anticipation of a concerted air attack, the government evacuated children to rural areas in Operation Pied Piper. Matthew was separated from his mother. Gail did not resist as she wanted her son to be in a safer place. Matthew continued his schooling in the countryside and Gail continued to work.

The authorities set up air raid shelters in London. Despite the evacuations and the numerous blackouts, a sense of normality prevailed. The people made it through the severe winter. There were no sirens as the air raid had yet to materialise. The summer was as pleasant and active as one could get during wartime. The British bulldog spirit remained unsubdued but it could not prevent the vast number of injured soldiers that came back. The community organised itself to provide support and assistance. There were soldiers from all over and new relationships were forged. Somehow, life continued. People would still go to their work and then gravitate in the evenings around pubs.

On September 7, 1940, came the Blitz. The City of London as well as the broader London Civil Defence Area were attacked. The ground shook and buildings crumbled. Fires broke out and the din of air raid warnings and fire engine sirens settled wistfully in everyone’s ears. The government enforced a blackout. Darkness only amplified the firing from the anti-aircraft guns.

The Spitfires and Hurricanes engaged to defend their motherland and roared into whatever the Luftwaffe could throw at them. The German bombers dropped not only bombs but also incendiary devices. London was alight and during almost three months of unrelenting bombing, the Docklands were pulverised and Gail’s accommodation was destroyed. She was quickly rehoused by the still functional social services. Despite immeasurable damage, the unrelenting fortitude of Londoners kept the wheels of business and efficiency turning. Many London landmarks survived although St. Paul’s cathedral suffered considerable damage. The surviving symbols of Britain and London lifted the spirits and fed the sentiment of invincibility. Unlike London, other cities fared worse.

The Tube sheltered thousands until May 1941 by when the Royal Air Force had won the battle of Britain.

After eight months away from each other, Matthew and Gail were reunited.

Matthew’s schooling in a quickly constructed local school was relaunched.

The war had brought forward latent generosity and support for the less fortunate from across the social spectrum. Gail’s employers provided the clothes, shoes and satchel. Although they had previously been demanding in their expectations of her work and had been stingy when discussing wages, they felt sorry for a woman trying to raise a child alone in such times. She enjoyed the empathy of her clients as she was diligent in her work. As she had to go to work every morning, Matthew would have to make his way to school on his own. Some sacrifices had to be made in the upbringing of her son. The street was narrow, and being shoved and pushed aside was routine for him. He did not mind and took all this in his stride. He emitted a glow of quiet confidence, a characteristic rare in his world. He had not felt the absence of a father and was connected to his mother’s maxim: “Get a good education, work hard and prosper.”

Before he set off each morning, Matthew washed his face with a clean, wet rag and combed his hair back tight with a side parting. A deceptively proud proponent, his poise and straight-backed confidence stood out from the world around him. He was not treated like a street urchin but someone better than his surroundings.

The years at school and at home in Gail’s company forged a rounded youngster. By the time he was twelve, Gail no longer looked at him as a child. He was a young man who would make his way in this world, fending for himself a lot better than she had for herself. He would be educated, broaden his horizons, and grab the opportunities encountered. And then one day, he would meet a nice girl, marry her and set up their home.

Undoubtedly, there would be difficulties, but he would get through them. He was her son!

Gail refused to identify Matthew’s father: “No one who abandoned us can be called your father. I know it was thirteen years ago, but I remember his departure as if it were yesterday. I do not want to be secretive. I just do not want you to have any notion that you ever had a father.”

The stevedore who seduced Gail had left on a ship for America a few days after he learnt she was with child. Gail had loved him and was hoping that they would get married. There was hurt and bitterness, but Gail decided to go ahead with what was hers. Stevedore or no stevedore, her son would be hers. Domestic turmoil would be absent. But adversity would stay.

His birthday called for an extravagant meal of roast beef and gravy and a glass of ale. A celebration at the Stephens household was exceptional, but this was a special landmark for a proud mother and her young man. The fact that she was running a fever could not detract from marking her son’s day.

The following morning, Gail still felt weak and asked Matthew to get some provisions from Mr Strike, the grocer. “Tell him that I am not feeling well, and I will pay him later. And please put that hammer away. I forgot it next to the cooker; it should be on the shelf next to the street door so we can find it when needed.”

Matthew did her bidding. Mr Strike gave over the provisions and gave him a small paper chit with the list of items shown with the total price. Matthew returned, put the things in their place and cooked soup for his mother.

“Thank you, Son. I am feeling a lot better than this morning. So, I can clear up while you do your schoolwork.”

“No, Mother, it is all right. I did my work at school yesterday.”

There was a knock on the door. Mother and son looked at each other questioningly. “Who is it?”

“It’s the grocer.”

Matthew opened the door to Mr Strike and another man who worked in his shop.

“Mr Strike?”

He moved towards Gail. “Your son said you were not well, so I thought I would look you up. You are in bed; how convenient.”

“If it is about the money, I can pay you tomorrow. My wages are due.”

Mr Strike’s companion stayed by the door behind Matthew, who was facing his mother. But Alan Strike walked to the bed and stretched his hand to Gail’s forehead. This was strange, but she was lying under a quilt. She felt his palm on her forehead.

“You do not seem to have a fever anymore, so you will be fine. You have such a beautiful complexion.” His hand moved down the side of her face.

Gail snatched her face away, but Mr Strike’s hand kept moving down her shoulder under the quilt till it reached her breast. Gail kicked her quilt away and jumped up. Matthew tried to move towards her but was restricted by the man behind him. He was stuck in a firm arm hold across his shoulder, tightened around his throat.

Alan Strike put all his weight on Gail and, grabbing both of her wrists, pinned her down on the bed while wedging his torso into position between her legs. Gail screamed. Matthew stamped his heel onto the man’s foot, who momentarily loosened his grip. Matthew bit his hand hard and was let loose. He grabbed the hammer from the shelf and raced towards the bed. He swung the hammer onto Mr Strike’s head. Blood spurted out immediately. He turned towards the door, but the other man was gone.

Gail screamed again. The man who had collapsed on top of her had moved. Matthew darted back and swung the hammer again and yet again. This time, a wallop of blood-drenched brain appeared through the broken skull. Seeing his crushed head and the pool of blood spread on the bedsheet, Gail pushed him back and realised that her assailant was dead. Matthew was crying. Gail took him in her arms and then moved to look at him. “Do not cry. You did well, Son. You saved my honour. There is no greater act.”

Matthew could not speak and looked back at her in shock and fear, the hammer still in his hand.

Gail got to work. She and her son wrapped the body in the sheet, washed the hammer, and sat the body against the door. They then cleaned themselves to remove the bloodstains and put on fresh clothes. As night fell, Matthew went to the coal merchant and returned with an empty wheel cart with empty gunny sacks. Once they ensured no one was within earshot, under the cover of darkness, they heaped the body onto the cart, covering it with gunny sacks and wheeled it to a maintenance hole covering the drain pit. They removed the gunny bags, put them aside, opened the manhole cover, and, with considerable effort, pushed the body through the opening and let it go, hearing a splash. They put the sacks back in the cart and wheeled it back to their house.

Once back in their room, she said, “Son, this will never be mentioned to anyone. We will both die with this. That man was a monster and needed someone to finish him.”

“Did I not murder him, Mother?”

“No, Matthew, you do not murder monsters; you slay them.”

“But what about the other man?”

“He will not say anything. If the people around here learn that he was part of an attack on a mother and her son, they will lynch him. We may be poor here, but we value each other.”

Gail was right. The shop did not open the next morning or any other morning. The other man disappeared as well. A few days later, the sewage collectors found a body. When they identified the body, the neighbourhood quickly assumed that the missing shop hand had had something to do with this. They used to argue all the time. Someone had even seen the two men in each other’s arms.

“Good riddance to filth. We do not like their sort over here in any case.”

Life was cheap in this part of town, and the police were extremely willing to accept a plausible motivation. The case was opened, shut, and filed into the archives within the week.

 

About the Author


Arvind is French and British with roots in India. He lives and works in Brussels.

Arvind has three adult children, who all live away from Belgium. He reads literary fiction and was motivated to write after reading three key books: The Portrait of Dorian Gray, Thérèse Raquin, 1984 and East of Eden. He is fascinated by the co-existence of good and evil. In his first book, Emma's Equilibrium, he relates the story of an Olympic winner who suffers hurt along the way. Choppiness on High Seas charts the life of Matthew from his ignominious birth to his passing away in peace after having become one of the weathiest persons in the world.

Arvind loves languages and can speak French, Spanish, Dutch, German, Italian, Hindi, Punjabi and Gujarati. He is a stroke survivor and rides, jogs and does yoga.

He is a strong believer in the duality of fortune and misfortune. He is deeply spiritual.

Arvind finds writing challenging and frustrating and editing particularly painful. He, however, believes that writing can be therapeutic and gratifying.


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Teaser ~ CASH by Marteeka Karland



Mc Romance 

Date Published: June 19, 2026

Publisher: Changeling Press



I’m losing the fight to protect my daughter from invisible monsters. Cash may be our only hope.

Eliza – My daughter Lily’s plagued with mysterious injuries. We’ve spent far too much time in the ER. Doctors push me away when I ask for answers. Insurance denies our claims. Then Child Services decides I’m the monster. I’m out of options -- until Cash steps between us and the people trying to tear us apart. He’s dangerous – a biker and an ex-con. He’s also the first person who believes me. And that might be the most dangerous thing of all.

Cash -- Prison taught me to keep my head down, not get attached. Then court-ordered community service puts me in a pediatric ward, where a terrified little girl with a pink cast asks me to sing her to sleep. Lily isn’t mine. Her mother, Eliza, isn’t my problem. Except the second I see the system closing in on them, I know better. Eliza isn’t hurting her daughter. She’s fighting for Lily with everything she has. But when no one else listens, I bring in Kiss of Death, Haven, and every weapon we have that doesn’t require blood on the floor. Yet the more I try to protect them, the harder it is to pretend I don’t want them both.

 

 
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Cash

I returned to the pediatric ward two nights later, my mind still lingering on the small girl with the pink cast. The mop bucket rattled ahead of me as I pushed it down the corridor, the wheels squeaking against the polished floor. I had finished my assigned section early, giving me a few minutes to check on Lily. I told myself it was just curiosity, nothing more, but the memory of her tears had stuck with me through my shift at the bar last night and the following restless sleep. As I approached her room, I heard raised voices from inside, the sharp tone of an adult argument cutting through the usual hospital quiet.

I slowed my steps, not wanting to intrude on whatever was happening. The hospital had strict rules about patient privacy, and I was already walking a thin line by visiting a patient outside my cleaning duties. But when I recognized Lily’s small voice rising between the adult voices, I found myself moving forward again.

The door to room 416 stood partially open. I paused just outside, my hand resting on the door frame. Inside, two women faced off across Lily’s bed. One was clearly Lily’s mother, small and slight with the same delicate features as her daughter, though hers were drawn tight with exhaustion. Dark circles shadowed her eyes, and her brown hair was pulled back in a messy knot looking like it had been hastily arranged. Despite her obvious fatigue, her stance was defiant, her chin raised as she glared at the other woman.

The second woman wore a crisp pantsuit and carried a tablet she occasionally tapped. Her hair was styled in a severe bob, framing her face. She wore a lanyard with an ID badge reading “Department of Child Services” and “Mrs. Janet Winters.” My stomach dropped at the sight. I had seen enough of them at Haven to know the conversation couldn’t be good.

“I have told Dr. Samson repeatedly. Lily bruises easily,” the mother was saying, her voice tight with controlled frustration. “I’ve been begging for more tests for over a year. But insurance keeps denying the claims, and Dr. Samson says the symptoms aren’t severe enough to warrant specialist referrals.”

“Ms. Jans,” the social worker replied, her voice clinical and detached, “this is Lily’s fourth hospital visit in eight months. The pattern of injuries is concerning. These bruises” -- she gestured toward Lily with her pen --”are consistent with grab marks.”

“Because I have to grab her when she falls,” Lily’s mother -- Ms. Jans -- said, her voice cracking slightly. “She falls constantly. She trips over nothing. Her legs just give out sometimes. If I don’t grab her and she hits something, she could get hurt worse.” She rubbed a hand across her face. “I work two jobs. I can’t afford the tests Dr. Samson won’t order. I’ve researched online, I think she might have --”

“Self-diagnosis from Internet searches is hardly reliable,” the social worker cut in, writing something on her clipboard. “The fact remains Lily presents with multiple unexplained injuries.”

“They’re not unexplained,” Ms. Jans insisted, her small hands clenching into fists at her sides. “I’ve explained them every single time.”

I shifted my weight, drawing the attention of both women. My gaze moved past them to Lily, who lay quietly watching the adults argue over her. Her thin arm was still encased in the bright pink cast, but now I could see more clearly the pattern of bruises dotting her pale skin. They did look like fingerprints in places, but something about the way they clustered didn’t feel right to me. I’d seen plenty of abuse in my time, both as a kid and later when women showed up at Haven. This felt different.

When Lily spotted me, her whole face transformed. The wariness vanished, replaced by a smile that lit up her tired features. “Cash,” she said, her voice rising with excitement. “You came back. Will you sing to me again?”

The social worker’s head snapped toward me, her eyes narrowing as she took in my appearance. Her gaze lingered on my MC cut, the Kiss of Death patch prominently displayed on the leather. Her lips pressed into a thin line as she looked me up and down, taking in the tattoos visible on my neck and hands.

“Sing?” Ms. Jans asked, looking between her daughter and me with confusion.

“He has pictures all over his skin,” Lily informed her mother. “And he sang me to sleep when you had to go talk to the doctors. He has a pretty voice.”

The social worker’s stylus moved rapidly across her tablet, and I didn’t need to see what she was writing to know it wasn’t good.

“Ma’am,” I said, addressing the social worker and keeping my voice respectfully low, “I’m just the janitor. Part of the community service program.” I gestured to my volunteer badge. “The kid was crying alone in her room a couple nights back, so I sang her a lullaby until a nurse could come.”

Ms. Jans looked at me with a mix of gratitude and new wariness. The circles under her eyes looked even darker up close, and I noticed her hands were rough and reddened, the nails clipped short.

“Thank you,” she said quietly. “I had to speak with the doctor about her new medications. The nurses said they’d check on her, but --”

“Budget cuts mean they’re always short-staffed,” I finished for her, understanding all too well how systems failed the people who needed them most. “Probably thought she’d sleep through you being gone.” I glanced at the social worker. “Sounds like you got set up to fail. They make you leave your child to go talk to the doc then fail to stay with her.” I had no idea if I was right, but judging by the way the social worker flushed, I was pretty close.

“And you are?” she asked, her gaze flicking meaningfully to my cut again.

“Johnny Kingston,” I answered, deciding against offering my hand. “Everyone calls me Cash.”

“Mr. Kingston,” she said, emphasizing each syllable as she wrote my name down, “are you regularly alone with pediatric patients as part of your community service?”

The implication in her tone made my jaw clench, but I kept my expression neutral. Getting angry would only make things worse for Lily and her mother.

“No, ma’am,” I replied evenly. “I mop floors and restock supplies. The door was open, and hospital security monitors the entrance to all the pediatric rooms.” I pointed to where the camera angled across the hall to be able to see the entry of this room and the room next to it. “I stayed where the camera could see me at all times. Besides, I just couldn’t leave a crying kid alone. Not without making sure she hadn’t fallen or hurt herself in some way.”

Ms. Winters made another note, then turned back to Ms. Jans. “I’ll be submitting my report to the department today. Given the circumstances, we’ll be opening a full investigation. In the meantime, Lily will remain here under hospital supervision until we determine the next steps.”

The color drained from Ms. Jans’ face. “You can’t keep me away. She needs me here. She gets scared in hospitals.”

“Whether or when you can stay with the child will depend on the findings of our investigation,” Ms. Winters replied coolly. “If you have nothing to hide, you should welcome a thorough examination of the situation.”

I watched as Ms. Jans seemed to shrink before my eyes, the fight visibly draining from her small frame. I recognized the look too well. She knew her guilt had already been decided. Likely because investigating deeper took effort from an overworked system.

“Mommy?” Lily’s voice trembled slightly. “Are we going home soon?”

“Yes, baby,” Ms. Jans said, but the tremor in her voice betrayed her uncertainty. “As soon as the doctors say it’s OK.”

Ms. Winters tucked her tablet under her arm and moved toward the door where I still stood. As she passed, she paused and lowered her voice.

“Mr. Kingston, I suggest you stick to your assigned duties. Your association” -- her eyes flicked to my cut again --”could complicate matters for everyone involved.”

With her parting shot, Ms. Winters brushed past me into the corridor, leaving the room several degrees colder in her wake.

Ms. Winters left the door open. The tension in the room thickened as Ms. Jans turned toward me with the wariness of a cornered animal. She shifted to place herself more firmly between me and her daughter. Her eyes, the same shade of blue as Lily’s but hardened by worry, assessed me from head to toe. The woman at Haven often gave men in the club they met for the first time the same look.

“I should go,” I said, taking a step back toward the door. The last thing this woman needed was another perceived threat in her life.

“No, stay,” Lily called out, her small voice surprisingly authoritative for someone so tiny. “I want to show Mommy how you sing.”

Ms. Jans’ gaze flickered between her daughter and me, her posture rigid, hands still clenched at her sides. The protective instinct radiating from her was almost tangible, a force field surrounding her child.

“Lily, Mr. Kingston probably needs to get back to work,” she said carefully, her tone gentle with her daughter but her eyes still fixed warily on me.

“Cash,” I corrected automatically. “Everyone calls me Cash.”

“He made me feel better when you were gone, Mommy,” Lily continued, ignoring her mother’s attempt to dismiss me. “I was crying because I missed you, and he sang to me like you do. He has a pretty voice, like the radio. He’s my new friend.”

Ms. Jans looked at her daughter, then back at me, reassessing. She nodded slowly, some of the tension easing from her shoulders. “Thank you,” she said quietly. “For being kind to Lily.”

I shuffled my feet, uncomfortable with the gratitude. “Anyone would have done the same.”

“No,” she said with surprising firmness. “They wouldn’t have. Most people don’t want to get involved.” She ducked her head. “Or just don’t care.”

Before I could respond, Ms. Winters stepped back into the room, her tablet still clutched to her chest like a shield. Her eyes darted between Ms. Jans and me, clearly surprised to find me still there.


 
About the Author

Marteeka Karland is an international bestselling author who leads a double life as an erotic romance author by evening and a semi-domesticated housewife by day. Known for her down and dirty MC romances, Marteeka takes pleasure in spinning tales of tenacious, protective heroes and spirited, vulnerable heroines. She staunchly advocates that every character deserves a blissful ending, even, sometimes, the villains in her narratives. Her writings are speckled with intense, raw elements resulting in page-turning delight entwined with seductive escapades leading up to gratifying conclusions that elicit a sigh from her readers.

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Monday, June 15, 2026

Book Tour ~ For She Had Eyes - A Novel by Seth Margolis

 



Book Details:

Book Title: For She Had Eyes by Seth Margolis
Category:  Adult Fiction (18 +), 300 pages
Genre: Psychological Suspense 
Publisher:  Arcanum Books
Release date:  May 2026
Content Rating: PG +M: The book includes scenes of adultery, (mild) descriptions of sex, and some profanity
Book Description:

Three people. Three lies. One deadly reckoning.
When Oliver Troika meets Danielle Hampdon at a hot Manhattan nightclub, the attraction is immediate – and unsettlingly perfect. Oliver is handsome, charming, and newly wealthy; Danielle is poised, intelligent, and born into one of Park Avenue’s most illustrious families. They come from vastly different worlds, yet their connection feels inevitable.
Not everyone is convinced.
Ivan Abelov, Oliver’s childhood friend and business partner, senses something off about Danielle. Or is it wishful thinking born of jealousy?  And the more Oliver falls under her spell, the more determined Ivan becomes to uncover who thinks she really is – even if he has to invent the truth about her.
What begins as unsupported suspicion soon escalates into a dangerous game of secrets and deception, where every revelation raises the stakes – and every move risks exposing a truth that could ruin them all.
In a story that echoes Othello, suspicion is carefully sown, and once it takes hold, it threatens to unravel everything. Who can be trusted? Who is hiding behind a carefully constructed past? And how far will each of them go to protect the life they’ve built?
FOR SHE HAD EYES is a gripping suspense novel about ambition, loyalty, and the fatal cost of believing the wrong person – right up to its startling final pages.

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Seth has written and published several novels, including LOSING ISAIAH, which was adapted as a feature film starring Halle Berry and Jessica Lange, and, most recently, THE SEMPER SONNET. He lives with his wife, Carole, in New York City. They have two grown children, Maggie and Jack. Seth received a BA in English from the University of Rochester and an MBA in marketing from New York University’s Stern School of Business Administration. When not writing fiction, he is a branding consultant for a wide range of companies, primarily in the financial services, technology and pharmaceutical industries. He has written articles for the New York Times and other publications on travel and entertainment.

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Book Blitz ~ The Ice Queen's Shoes - Breadcove Bay by R. S. Kellogg

 

The Ice Queen’s Shoes
R.S. Kellogg
(Breadcove Bay)
Publication date: August 7th 2021
Genres: Adult, Fantasy

When missing your train could change everything…

Freshly graduated from Borealis University and reeling from a failed apprenticeship, Della only wants to get home. But a minor injury changes her route in magical ways and opens unexpected possibilities.

If you love atmospheric fantasy, subtle magic, and stories where a single moment can change a life, discover The Ice Queen’s Shoes today.

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EXCERPT:

“It is my holiday,” the man sitting across from Della on the train said. “A short one. Two days. So, I suppose it’s going a little bit differently than how I’d envisioned.”

Della watched him carefully. Who had a holiday that lasted only two days? And, for that matter, what kind of a person had a holiday now? Her university had reached the end of its term, but most of the city wouldn’t go on holiday for another three weeks, and then the whole city basically would take a month off.

The old man must have read something in her questioning expression. “I’ve been working on a project,” he said. He looked a bit stressed as he said it, but there was also something a bit impish about him—Della liked him despite her natural distrust of strangers. He seemed avuncular, and she could tell by the unique worn smooth brown cloth of his clothing that he was one of the North Men, rarely sighted in the city of Breadcove Bay.

She was a little flattered by the focus of his attention.

It was going to take some time to get to where she was going, so she may as well spend the time in interesting conversation.

“Tell me about your project,” she said.

He grinned. It was all the encouragement he needed.

“Me and my men have been tracking something across the northern plains,” he said, with the flair of a natural storyteller. “And a week ago, it just got a little bit more interesting. But three days ago, the trail went cold, fast. So, me and the men, we decided a break was in order. We’d each take a two-day vacation, and start at it fresh again.”

“If you’re tracking something,” Della interjected, “Wouldn’t taking a break mean you’d risk the trail going cold?”

The man shook his head.

He looked smug, Della thought. Smug with the air of a man who has supreme confidence in his craft.

“It’s not a beast I’m tracking,” he said. “Not that kind of a being at all. The way tracking of this nature goes, first the trail goes cold, then, we take a break, and if we’re lucky, as we soften our approach to it, the perfect information will naturally show up.”

Curiosity piqued, Della tilted her head. “Naturally show up when you are nowhere near the trail of your prey? I ask you, what on earth are you tracking?”

She’d heard, of course, the legends: that North Men tracked animals, found lost humans, located lost camps and lost objects, and sometimes . . . rumor had it . . . tracked supernatural beings.

She wondered whether she’d happened upon a North Man in the middle of a fairy tale, feeling a bit like an explorer who has stumbled into a strange new environment, where the people might do something completely unexpected at any moment.

Staring at him as though she were watching a polar bear in the governor’s private animal enclosure, where she had been a guest at the winter party one year, she waited as he seemed to debate within himself whether to share with her any part of his tracking tale—and if so, how much.

“I’m tracking a lady,” he finally said, and Della roared with laughter.

The man jolted, clearly knocked off kilter by Della’s hearty response.

She didn’t have a delicate laugh. It was more like the way a man would laugh when he had bested everyone at a game of cards. And it would come out of nowhere.

She cocked an eyebrow at him, folding her arms. She didn’t care a twig how people responded to her laugh. They could take her or leave her.

Just as she could take or leave anyone who came across her path.

And at the moment, this was a person who was entertaining her.

“You’re tracking a woman?” she asked him. “Did she wander out into the north and get lost? Or are you trying to find a romance?”

She snorted and shook her head.

He looked wounded but still doggedly eager to pursue the conversation.

“I’m tracking a Sky Woman,” he said, and Della leaned forward intently, her smile instantly gone.

A Sky Woman.

That would be more akin to a goddess.

“Why are you tracking a Sky Woman?” she asked him.

He rubbed the back of his neck. “It’s complicated,” he said. “But it’s part of the job of my family, and my men, to keep the balance between the Sky people of the north and the boundaries of the city. We have to make sure that neither side encroaches on the side of the other.”

She sighed. “That sounds like a big project.”

He nodded.

“How do you even begin to do something like that?” Della asked.


Author Bio:

R.S. Kellogg writes the Everyday Goddess Stories, the Mermaid Magic Tales, and fiction in the story realms of Breadcove Bay and Agratica, among other places.

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Sunday, June 14, 2026

Book Blitz ~ Mist in the Willows The Spirit Fleet Chronicles: Volume 1 by Lucy Linne

 

Mist In The Willows
Lucy Linne
(Spirit Fleet Chronicles, #1)
Publication date: August 25th 2025
Genres: Adult, Gothic, Horror, Urban Fantasy

Discharged unexpectedly from the British military at the peak of her career, Jade Palmer must find a way to rebuild her life. Haunted by strange nightmares and fragments of her own fractured memories, Jade finds herself thrust among unfriendly family and unfamiliar friends. Her only comfort is in the cobbled streets, quaint cottages and winding river paths that hold the happy echoes of her childhood.

But in the local cemetery, older than living memory, a strange mist rises among the willows in the depths of the night… and with it, a vengeful entity that seems to stalk Jade’s every footstep with terrifying purpose.

Alongside her faithful dog, Cannelloni, and wild-child sister, Leela, Jade must fight once more—braving a tangled journey through ancient supernatural lore, and the depths of her own hubris, to protect those she loves.

For the dead have truths to tell… and their retribution comes as cold as the grave.

Mist in the Willows, the first entry in the Spirit Fleet Chronicles, is a chilling and cozy gothic novel about loss, cupcakes, annoying family, mysterious steampunk strangers, and the ways in which violence may haunt us all.

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CHAPTER 1:

The first time I heard the chilling whisper calling my name, it came from Grandad’s old analogue radio.

I was unpacking the five sad-looking boxes containing all my worldly belongings and didn’t pay much attention. Dad stored them in his basement, and spiders were crawling out of every corner.

When I picked up my phone to check for messages, a mega-arachnid scuttled on eight hairy legs along my fingers. It had insidiously blended in with the black case of my mobile and became invisible. Now it took up most of the screen. I dropped my phone on the coffee table and spotted its mate, the same incredible size, scampering across the floor and under the couch. At least Grandad went to bed early and didn’t see this infestation I’d brought to his cherished houseboat.

I ran from the lounge to the open plan kitchen and grabbed a glass to trap the intruders.

As I passed by, the radio on the windowsill abruptly switched to a hoarse faltering static.

The music returned as I shook the glass out of the barge door, tossing the eight-legged giant, into the grass by the river path. The other one, nowhere to be found. I regretted trying to trap and release them. I would have rather squashed them with my hiking boot. But cleaning bug goo off the floor is a task I will avoid where possible. A flamethrower would be ideal but I’m out of those since I’m back home. So, the spider got to live another day.

As I rinsed that glass to put it away, I noticed it.

Wait a minute? What’s going on with the radio?

Standing beside the little radio, where it sat since my childhood, gathering dust on the windowsill, I listened to the static.

It had a quality about it that I found almost obscene. It sounded alive, fluctuating from deep cavernous whispers to a strange whistling. I fled the kitchen when it pitched that abominable screech of steak knives against dinner plates.

The static immediately faded away, returning to Grandad’s favourite sixties rock radio station. Back in the lounge, I punched a pile of empty boxes flat to bin them. Not that I wasn’t glad the static stopped. But something about the way it had switched so fast bothered me, as if it knew I had moved away from the radio.

Moments later I returned to the kitchen. The music shifted to static in an instant. I stood next to Grandad’s ancient kettle, plugging in my coffee maker, a survivor since my student years in the dorms.

How could it be so loud and not wake up Alan?

Its pulsing tones surged, like the call of a bottomless pit, then lulled to a sinister hum at the very edge of hearing. Every time it came, I cringed, as if plunging into neck deep water with ice cubes bobbing all around me.

Before I knew it, I had crossed the room and stood with one hand on my dog’s collar.

“You don’t like it either, huh? Good boy,” I said, as Cannelloni sat back down among the window seat cushions. The static melted away behind me, the music replacing it. Cannelloni tucked his head in his paws again with a huff.

I glanced back at the old radio. Had it sounded a bit like whispers in some guttural language? Surely, I was over thinking it. It could be nothing but static.

I headed for the desk to start my Wi-Fi set up, hoping to stream a movie and chill after the gruelling day, moving in with Grandad. And most importantly, to make sure her messages would come through on a stronger signal.

I reached and patted my cargos’ pocket, the little one with the zip on my hip. It was still there: I felt the round shape of her compact mirror. The only thing I have of her, until we meet again.

I felt better. There are good things in the world, and good days ahead.

As I pulled up the lid of my laptop, in the split second before the dark screen lit up, your face flashed at me.

It’s only been happening in the last few years or so, that my reflection startles me, looking like you. I’ve always had your impossibly thick and straight, dirty blonde hair. And your bushy brows over cobalt blue eyes. But most of all, in my late thirties, I’m now your age. The way I remember you. You would be much older today but if we could somehow meet, across death and time, both aged 38, we’d look like twins. Anyway, it only lasted a fraction of a second, and then the desktop lit up and I was looking for a movie right away.

Ten minutes later, I glanced suspiciously at the radio. Nothing.

Twenty minutes later, nothing.

Halfway through an outbreak of a superbly gruesome zombie apocalypse, I still couldn’t stop thinking about the static. Was I causing it? It only happened when I neared the radio.

Run a test?

I hesitated. So many other things to worry about at this moment. Why did I even care if the songs were interrupted a few times?

Because of how freakin weird this noise sounded.

I paused the movie, resigned to my curiosity. I edged along the back of the loveseat towards the kitchen. The music staggered as I reached the counter. Just to pretend to myself I didn’t come to test the radio, I reached out and grabbed a handful of cookies from the doggie jar.

The static soared.

Sounded like a cold gust whistling savagely out of a black chasm. Then dulled to the throaty whisper of an unsettling breeze through dead leaves. That did it. I got the hell out of the kitchen.

Joining Cannelloni at the window seat, I felt an unreasonable amount of relief that the music returned on the radio. Cannelloni thought so too. He gave such a profound growl he even startled me a bit. He bared his teeth at the kitchen. Not like him at all.

“Don’t worry, just a funny noise!” I said, letting him slurp the cookies on the palm of my hand. My gaze wandered back to the spot I had been standing.

A funny noise that comes only when I’m close to the radio. But how close, exactly?

I stood up, arms crossed and edged to the back of the couch marking the end of the lounge, not quite entering the kitchen.

“Ok Cannelloni let’s see, one step. Two steps, three…”

The music faltered. I stopped moving.

I leaned back as far as I could go without shifting my feet. The music flowed. I chuckled.

Not because I wasn’t scared. More like, because I was getting too scared.

Then I leaned forward.

The music faltered.

I tried to hold my balance, bent as far as I could reach like some demented yoga teacher who forgot which warrior pose they were demonstrating. A sudden fear, out of nowhere.

Rivulets of crimson streaking dry sand. Something solid in the blood. Glistening strips of sinew. Twitching on the red mud. Not again!

The gaps in the music, for some reason, flashed images from my nightmares in my mind.

I straightened up. This wasn’t funny anymore.

I’m good at pushing the memory of the nightmares away during the day and focusing on my work and everything else I have to worry about. This bloody radio thing was getting on my nerves.

I jumped with a yelp as a sharp pinch came from behind my left knee.

“Cannelloni! What are you doing?”

The dog had bitten hard into my trouser leg and was pulling at it. As if he wanted me to leave the kitchen.

“Aren’t you clever,” I said, disentangling myself and coming to sit with him by the window seat. “It’s ok, I’m staying here, you can snooze again!” I scratched under his ears until he turned around full circle on his cushions and plopped in the comfiest spot.

At least I know. It’s about four steps into the kitchen.

That would mean I can’t reach the counter without setting off the weird.

But I was done experimenting. Hated the way the static made me feel, and what it did to my dog too.

This boy, the only good thing about this new, civilian life, was normally a big bundle of cuddles. At the moment he looked perturbed, ears twitching. Cannelloni’s natural state was passed out, belly up, and fast asleep on his giant plushie bed. Ever since I brought him here from the shelter after Easter, he acted as if Grandad ’s houseboat has always been his rightful kingdom, where he reigned supreme and absolute. Yet now he kept sitting up, fretting, scanning the room with anxious eyes. Tiny whimpers squeaking at the back of his throat. I sensed danger too. But I couldn’t understand why.

I cast my gaze around the empty room.

I felt watched.

The dark water of the Thames sparkled under the moonlit sky from every side of the semi-circular cabin. I hated the glass, U shaped wall of the main cabin, but that’s what you get when living in a wide beam Dutch barge. The lounge was basically an open balcony. Anyone could be watching me from the dark river paths on either side of the banks, and I had zero visibility at night. Meanwhile, I lived and breathed in full view, unless I went to hide in my cabin at the back of the houseboat.

I went around lowering the window blinds post-haste.

Better. Only the kitchen window remained. I hesitated. I wanted to close those blinds too, but that would get me in the vicinity of the radio.

Pressing my hand to my brow, I felt sweat droplets at the root of my hair.

I took two steps forward. I was nearing the invisible mark I’d noted mentally, on the kitchen floor.

Two steps more. The music was faltering. Maybe if I went really fast it wouldn’t happen.

I dashed to the cord hanging at the casement, leaning in, real quick, my hand reaching out to the blind. The static came loud.

Flustered, I backed into the lounge again, and the songs came back on.

I sat down onto the couch, feeling like a coward.

The radio on the sill kept singing its quiet and perpetual song.

Grandad never changes station or switches the music off. He turns the sound up when he is around, which isn’t often. He doesn’t think the kitchen is a man’s place, he only comes to fill the water can when he looks after Grandma’s flowerpots. He treasures her little terrace garden in the front of the barge. He lowers the volume when he heads for his berth to watch his shows, the music from the radio playing quietly through the days and nights in the main cabin.

I wanted to close the kitchen shades but an irrational fear of going near the radio pinned me to the spot.

“Don’t be a twat, this happens all the time. People moving around a device can mess up the signal. Just fucking go,” I thought.

I moved to the window directly and lowered the blinds to the sound of loud static. It seemed eerily similar to fast, angry whispers.

And this time I could not deny it.

The radio called my name.

Jade… JADE!

OK, I hadn’t imagined that.

I ran back to the lounge to grab Cannelloni by the collar. He growled at the radio, irritated. I led him to my berth, shutting the door. We never went near the kitchen for the rest of that night.

Quite annoying, because the Wi-Fi signal is terrible in my cabin, so I had to go stand at the door every ten minutes to check for her messages.

None came.

Seemed ungrateful to complain. Grandma’s bedroom: Hands down the biggest room I had ever called my own. Walk in wardrobe. En suite bathroom. A recliner armchair, proper Victorian style. Fancy letter writing desk, with the miniature drawers to put in useless shit like ink bottles. Good to store the USB cables I keep losing. Queen bed. Four memory foam pillows. An army of multi shaped squishy cushions on a crochet throw. Fluffy duvet and matching dog blanket for Cannelloni (that’s store bought, I got it so my dog feels like he fits in). Lush. But still, I couldn’t chill enough to finish my movie.

I kept thinking about the radio saying my name.

In the cosy safety of my berth, it all seemed ridiculous. Of course, the radio didn’t say my name.

Probably someone spoke from outside, maybe someone else called Jade. Walking past with a friend.

I pressed play in my movie for the umpteenth time, getting comfy on the bed.

Lost cause. I couldn’t pay attention. Not even when the hordes of undead swarmed down the streets towards the hapless group of survivors hiding in the rubble. I was absolutely unable to stop wondering who had called my name outside the boat, in the dark.

That voice spoke to me.

Unwelcome memories from a few of hours earlier made my teeth grind as my jaw tightened.

“You’re staying with Alan then? How you gonna get yourself a nice man if you’re living with your Grandfather?” Their old man cackles, phlegmy snarling that ended in ugly coughs, had resounded across the river. Grandad ‘s friends sailed by leisurely, at a speed easy for him to jump over from their boat on to our deck. They wiped sweaty foreheads with beefy hands and stared at me while Grandad hopped on board.

“I’m not looking for nice,” I said, and watched their confusion halt their sneers. They’d thought I’d say I’m not looking for a man. All three of them took a gulp of their cans of lager, manspreading their knees a little wider as their boat bench creaked under their weight.

“What you looking for then?”

“None of your business.”

“Don’t be a smart ass,” Grandad told me under his breath, as he waved goodbye to the six seater rental sailing on. His friends don’t own a boat. And they take up two seats each.

“You look after your Grandfather now!” one of them called back to me.

“I will.” But I won’t be doing the kind of looking after that you lot expect of me.

“Your Grandma kept the Lady Thomasine spotless!” said another, looking over his shoulder.

“She had cinnamon buns hot from the oven every morning!” called the third over the growing distance between the boats.

Which meant that Alan had already complained to them about me. I only just moved in today for fuck’s sake.

“Grandad, can you please not discuss me with your friends?” I said. All I got in return, was a scowl in the direction of his laundry basket, parked in front of the washing machine. And a loud slam of his cabin door.

As if.

“Adults wash their own clothes,” I called after him. “And the bakery in the village has excellent cinnamon buns.”

Distant calls from the river bend reached me, and more guffawing. Something along the lines of ‘get in that kitchen, woman!’

I was used to their banter devolving, from barely friendly to openly woman-bashing, in T minus half a can of lager; I didn’t reply.

“They don’t mean anything, just joking!” shouted another one of them, as I turned around to look at them. Their shoulders were shaking from laughter; they found the women in the kitchen comment hilarious.

“Watch out for my high school mate Caden at the Lock today,” I called back.

“Why, you gonna marry the new Lock keeper?”

“No. His wife’s with the Port of London Authority, she has the power to breathalyse those suspected of boating under the influence.” I grinned as they choked on their snorts. “Have a nice evening now.” As they glowered wordlessly at me, I slammed the deck door behind me.

I generally never met Grandad’s friends, apart from on their river pub crawl weekends, when they picked him up and dropped him off. It’s an aspect of life back home, that I’m not looking forward to: seeing the three bigots Alan calls my ‘uncles’. Since I was a girl, they spent every moment of our brief weekly meetings cracking jokes at me, because apparently, I’m doing girlhood wrong.

I’m great at fixing the plumbing and maintaining the generator around the boat, every time I visited. Who cares if I don’t know how to operate the oven; when shit kept breaking after Alan tried to repair them three and four times over, Grandma called me; and I got the job done. Grandad hated it. Called me an odd ball ever since I was young. When I grew up, he and his friends took the piss every time I pulled out my toolbox. Which, incidentally, is bigger than any of theirs.

So, it had to be them, they probably came for a walk down the river path, calling my name outside the boat in the night. Stupid of me to buy it.

I turned to sleep, a tight knot in my stomach. Grandad’s friends are arseholes.

Not the best first night back home.

But I guess this is not really home. Just where I stay for now.

Cannelloni’s soft fur felt warm against my side, as he plopped down and curled up with a happy blink.

“Our first real night together, huh? I’m so glad to have you, boy,” I said, throwing an arm around him. The way he acted towards me with complete trust, as if we’d known each other out whole lives; it was amazing.

But as the dog fell fast asleep, I stayed wide awake in the dark. So, you see, Mum, it’s not been fun moving in with Grandad.

***

Jade paused and took a sip from her beer bottle. Her short ponytail waved in the breeze and brushed against the tombstone. The sun hung heavy on the horizon. Darkness draped more than half the graveyard. The thousand-year-old church, nestled among the graves and willow trees, cast a long and wide shadow over the grounds. The gust that blew from those darker tombs under its shadow, brought a chill to where Jade sat. She hugged her knees and shivered.

The golden disc of the sun vanished behind the treetops. As the world darkened around her and the evening birdsong gave away to silence, her blue eyes were vague, lost in thought.

The screen of her phone flashed, and she snatched it up. She looked at the message, but it wasn’t the one she wanted. She rolled her eyes.

“Leela won’t quit,” she muttered and threw the phone on the grass beside her again.

She turned to the grave and looked at the violin carved there. “Only thing I’m glad about is getting to chat with you whenever I like, now, Mum. I missed this when I had to be away all the time. But the shitty thing is I’ve never had a real, grownup civilian job in my life. I need one, to afford a place of my own. Clearing Grandad’s friends’ laptops from viruses is not going to get me a deposit for a flat.”

Taking another sip of her beer, she gazed at the tall-stemmed glass that stood, untouched, at the step of the gravestone, full to the brim with red wine.

“Sorry for the cheap bubbly, Mum, I can’t afford your posh vino at the moment. I’ll bring you better soon. Everything’s gone to hell right now. I never planned to retire from the Corps, but those nightmares! They just fucked everything up. Got a diagnonsense now. No more tours for me. And typical Dad, he refused to let me stay with them. What a great way to welcome me home at the airport! At least he said he will pay for therapy to sort out the nightmares. But only because I’ll never hold down a job if I can’t sleep through the night. Not that he cares, other than making sure I’ll never again ask him to stay in my childhood bedroom. She’s turned it into a jewellery crafts studio.” Jade rolled her eyes and chuckled. “I honestly don’t mind living on the boat. Really. Easier to get here from the mooring on my bike. Just hope that weird stuff with the radio will stop so I can get some work done and get some money saved. To move out as soon as possible.”

She finished her beer in one last sip. Blond locks had come loose from her ponytail and fallen over her face as she put her bottle away in her backpack. The tips of her hair were sun-bleached to almost white by nearly two decades in the desert sun; in contrast to her once fair skin, now tanned to a deep bronze.

Movement among the distant graves made her look up. Someone had crossed the cemetery gates in the twilight. Jade instinctively hid behind her mother’s tombstone and watched him follow the winding path among the tombs.

“That’s a bit late for visiting this place,” she muttered. She waited to see which grave he would visit, ready to make a mental note of its location and check the tombstone later on. He looked young, even hunched as he was, with his face in the shadows; his gait was light and his pace swift. Jade guessed someone that age was probably not here for a partner; more likely, like herself, for his mum or dad…

Her curiosity slowly turned into a frown of surprise. He’d kept going. He crossed the path into the grove of the willows. And still he walked on.

“Why that way, that side is the old burial ground.” She crouched deeper and leaned to peer from the other side of her mother’s tombstone. He crossed to the pitch-black darkness at the back of the old church. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t see any details of his face or clothing; it was too dark on that side. The ancient burial ground was off the path and the light of the lampposts didn’t reach it. Only the dim pearly starlight granted some shapes to the vista of mossy headstones crumbling there. No one had been buried there in the last two hundred years; the latest dates on those stones were in the eighteen hundreds. No fresh flower bouquets were left on those graves, and moss grew on the stone unchecked, deepening the cracks and eating away at the skull symbols etched there. No one ever cleared away the ivy growing over those names.

Why would anyone go there?

A clink of glass alerted her that she had almost knocked over the wine sitting at the front of the tombstone. Jade lost all interest in the stranger.

“Sorry Mum.” Making sure the wine was safe, Jade picked up her phone once again.

“No new messages.”

She sighed.

“I keep re-reading the old messages: No dates yet, but everything is short notice. People get told to pack at noon and fly out before sunset. It could happen any minute. I know it will be my turn soon. Ami wrote that three days ago. I replied: I miss you. I can’t believe it’s taking so long. It looks like chaos over there, it’s on the news every day. Are you ok. One day later, without getting a reply, I texted again: I haven’t heard your actual voice in four weeks. I can’t stand it.” She paused.

“That text was so embarrassing,” Jade muttered. “Throwing my own pity party while I’m back home, and meanwhile she is in the desert, her deployment extended and she’s dealing with the madness of the evacuation. I wish I had deleted it.” She bit her lip.

“Thirty-two hours later, came a reply: I know, I miss you too. Don’t worry about me, I’m fine. I just never imagined anything like this. How are you? How is Cannelloni? Is he settling in? Happy to have a new family?”

A chuckle. Then Jade got serious again looking at her screen.

“That’s the last I’ve heard from her. I replied: Cannelloni ‘s the best! He’s with Grandad for a few weeks already, I dropped him off first. You’d think he’s been living on the boat all his life! Grandad sent me photos. I wrote this on the last days of packing back on the base,” Jade murmured wistfully. “That dog is so cute I’m actually looking forward to moving day so I can see him. I guess your plan worked. I’m not 100% devastated to be leaving. There’s this teeny, tiny part of me that can’t help being happy. So damn happy about a stupid dog.”

Jade sighed.

“There’s been no reply since.” She fidgeted with the phone in her hands. “I’ve been sending her photos of Cannelloni nonstop since I arrived at the boat, but they haven’t been delivered. I wish I could tell her how awesome he is! I was worried he’d have forgotten me over the few weeks I had to leave him with Grandad and go back to base to pack and check out of the accommodation. But he remembered me right away! Fell in my arms like we are best friends. Maybe he’ll always know I’m the human who came and took him out of the dog charity, I guess. Maybe that’s why he likes me so well. I’m so glad I got him, Mum. These feel like the worst days of my life and yet he makes me smile all the time. Ami was so right telling me to get a dog.”

The night chill made her shudder.

“I think I’ll head home, Mum. Love you always.” She picked up the glass and poured the wine slowly on the grass covering the grave. She finished the silent goodbye by brushing a kiss on her own fingertips and pressing them for a heartbeat on the stone, where the name Evelyn could just be discerned carved in silver against the darkness.

“See you soon, Mum.”

Jade stood.

“Hang on, hang on. Where the hell did he go?”

She was alone in the cemetery. The stranger was no longer among the Celtic crosses and gothic inscriptions of the ancient tombs, nor had he come back down the path.

“There’s nowhere to go from that side,” Jade said, puzzled. She scanned the ivy-covered wall surrounding the churchyard. It was too tall to climb over. And yet the man had somehow managed to get out.

“Ok Mum, I think next time I’ll bring a ginger beer. Clearly, alcohol doesn’t go well with late evening chats in the cemetery.”

She scanned the darkness one last time.

The only thing moving where the stranger had been was a veil of pearly white mist, flowing over the grass like wisps of coiling tongues licking the gravestones.

She shrugged.

“Whatever. Bye, Mum.”

She walked briskly down the solitary path and through the cemetery gates, where her bike stood tied to a railing. Just like Jade’s trainers and backpack, the bike was well used, but pristinely clean. She welcomed the sounds of laughter and clinking cutlery that came from the garden of the village pub down the road. It was always too quiet inside the cemetery, once you crossed through those gates.

She’d often wondered how the ancient stone wall around the churchyard blocked all auditory evidence of life—no voices at all, even though the riverside path was often busy with couples or families deep in conversation as they strolled by the Thames. No crunching of footfalls, no dogs barking, no bubbling cavitation of boats zooming past, no music, no clicking of bicycles’ wheels—but the burble and swoosh of the river was ever present. It made the cemetery feel like an isolated world of its own.

Like it somehow cancelled out all living sound.


Author Bio:

Doodler. Living in a perpetual state of Halloween. Fueled by chocolate. Boxer. Unapologetic introvert. Adopted by three cats and a cat-sized dog. Purple everything. Psychology student. Goth. Can be bribed with artsy, hard cover notebooks. Ghost friendly. Will be summoned by freshly brewed coffee. Suspiciously familiar with Greco-Roman mythology, and several dead languages commonly used for demon summoning. Wall-frames maps. Devout observer of cupcake o’clock. Feminist Motto: Skulls, Bats and Witches’ Hats. Spinning while audiobooking. All you need is fluffy socks and a pint of nice-cream. Frequently channels Disney Villains. Names her house spiders. Owner of a pet GAMER, whom she’s kept in his man cave, on a diet of pizza and horror movies, for well over two decades.

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